…and I will fail. Without any doubt in my mind. It has so many kanji that I have no idea about, it is not even funny. See, I am actually very happy with my Japanese skills at the moment. I understand most of what my friends talk about now, and can honestly nod along…and not just out of pretended comprehension. So I will not be able to read the kanji very much, and that will fail me. There’s a smaller part of listening, which I think I can manage to do decently on. It’s not my Japanese skill I don’t have faith in, just the list of kanji I know.
And even to understand the questions I do know, I need to understand the kanji in them. It’s like a trap for failure. And one of the things I loathe most, is failure. I do not take it well, and I know that’s what I’m getting set up for right now. So it’s incredibly stressful. UGH.
I made a new video blog too. I answer mailbag questions. Click the link on the side to see my video blogs. Aaaaand forums are finally up. Click the new link on the sidebar, above video blogs. Mostly for people interested in foreign exchange OR people currently living in Japan.
Paul, you’re not a failure if you’re satisfied with yourself. Seriously, if they expect you to know all these kanji after only a year, then they’re crazy! o_o Japanese people even have trouble with Kanji! (At least that’s what I hear~)
._. But you shouldn’t feel any less about yourself if you get a bad mark on this test. You’ve accomplished SO much! :3 I’m proud of you. You need to remember that just because you’re not going to do well on a silly test, that you’ve learned A LOT from this experience. That’s what matters most.
:3 Love you lots!
Stay safe!
X3 AND GOOD LUCK! :3
~Kura-pu