I’m ready to clear up a few things
1) I’m gay. Honestly, I don’t even see how this is a big issue anymore. This isn’t some choice I made when I woke up one morning, this isn’t being a pervert, this is who I am. I am Caucasian. I have dirty blond hair. I have green eyes. I am gay. People are people and love is love. I don’t believe on discrimination based on anything.
2) I’m switching schools. Why would I do that when I have only one semester left? Because I need a new environment. I’ve been going through a sever depression from, well, a long time ago. I went from being an A/B student to getting mostly Ds now. I need a place in which I can work in a less stressful place. So I’m going to a charter school which focuses on independent study and where I can work on my Japanese. Believe it or not, depression can be pretty hard to deal with and debilitating.
If anyone wants to discuss me being gay, contact me. Not my parents. This is just who I am and it has nothing to do with them. It seems rather silly that anyone would think that, but some do. I also do not believe that homosexuality is a sin. The Bible can be interpreted in a myriad of ways. Christians should see that they base their beliefs off of the New Testament, and wonder of wonders, Jesus said nothing about being gay. And if we’re going by the old testament, looks like having concubines, multiples wives, selling girls for slaves, etc are all now legal. But the most important fact is that people really have no right to force their moral beliefs on others. I can be who I want to, and you can too. It’s the joy of being in America.
Some people who found out about this via my Facebook account handled things badly. I’m not even going to mince words or cover up the truth. My family was deeply offended and so was I. Thank you to the family members that have been overwhelmingly supportive through what has been a difficult time for me. I hope others will gain some understanding for people who are just a bit different than they are.
And to CFHS students, I’ll miss some of you a lot. And some of you I think need to grow up.
Paul! I miss you! The entire AP Gov’t class has moved into the “jury box” now…you should be with us!
If you are getting what you want at ArtTech, then I’m happy for you.
January 22nd, 2008 at 6:16 pm
You rock Paul. I admire your courage and integrity. I did not come out until mid-way thru university. Don’t let anyone make you feel bad about who you are. You are stronger than I ever was at your age. Props sir.
January 28th, 2008 at 10:54 am
The New Testament was written by God through man, was it not? Even though Jesus himself did not say it, Paul (the dood you were named after I presume), the author of 1 Corinthians did. 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 says, “Don’t you know that those who do wrong will have no share in the Kingdom of God? Don’t fool yourselves. Those who indulge in sexual sin, who are idol worshipers, adulterers, male prostitutes, homosexuals, thieves, greedy people, drunkards, abusers and swindlers — none of these will have a share in the Kingdom of God.” And if you don’t buy that, well… who are you to pick and choose what’s true and what’s not? Not trying to sway you just, kinda like a “Ummm… actually…” I personally don’t believe some one just is gay simply because many gays do become straight again (including a close family friend of mine).
That’s cool you’re going to be getting back into Japanese. Do you plan on returning there?
January 30th, 2008 at 8:41 pm
Just to clarify, programs that are made to make gay people straight have been proven to be largely detrimental to mental health.
It’s sad :[
February 4th, 2008 at 10:04 am
I hope you are doing well with your new school and everything else going on. I know how things can be. Not saying I know how tough it is to face the things gay people must face because I don’t. By this I mean not only people around you, but yourself as well. I imagine it be even harder if you were raised Christian. But, I will say I know how tough it can be facing depression. I am going through it now just about as badly as you are. I moved from CA to TX partly because I wanted to partly because my mom wanted change too, and even at this for some reason going to school is bringing me down. I didn’t go the whole first semester of this year either. I am a Jr right now, so this has brought me even lower and has got me more stressed out on how I am going to graduate. See all this brought my studies low. I have never been a bad student and have always worked hard, but depression can take a toll on you bringing your energy, self-esteem, and drive to an all time low. So, Monday I start at a charter school to hopefully catch up on my credits, and this summer I will be packed with college classes trying to get measures to graduate DAP with my class. We’ll see how it goes. The depression is still there, but i’m hoping a school like this can help me out of this hole i’ve dug myself in and can’t seem to get out of. Anyways, I just wanted to say hang in there, and you truly inspire me because after how i’ve been feeling I can’t imagine piling up “coming out” on top of this.
-Mai Kao
February 14th, 2008 at 11:40 pm
hey my first comment on you blog. even though this is an old one i just wanted to say that i support you on your sexuality. i personally dont see what is so wrong about homosexuality. what you said is true that people are people and love is love. You have lots of courage man and i respect that.
February 25th, 2008 at 10:09 am